evening conversations often bringing much light and curiosity to that of a heart longing for a honest distraction....

with no expectation of what is yet to be unraveled... i look forward to your return...


to this i thank you for your words..

good times....

sun = sunglasses = good times

together we are tougher...

my family is one that can only be described as 'different'... a family with much closeness, realness and honesty... where personalities are so different and morals so alike... where opinions cause arguments and are often left with no real agreement but the understanding that we all make our own choices... where togetherness brings enjoyment and good times.... and we each get a chance to be the joke of the party... a family where this week we may not see each other but next we will over do it.... where when life stumbles on one, we together with much love and hope continue to make each day count....

and together we are so much tougher....



with much heartache and tears we once again find ourselves battling that of another sickness... one leaving us with loads of questions why and how....

for so long we have embraced life's struggles with love and laughter... bringing so much hope and positiveness into our home... taking on each high and low with an open mind...

but how long can we be strong without ever really breaking down????

as i sit here alone i discover that my once cherished quiet time has now turned into that of a nightmare... where my thoughts have time to develop into undesired anger and loss... my tears unable to find any real ending and my heart aching for that i know i will someday too soon lose....
adjusting to this new challenge i find myself scared and troubled not only for my family and i but that of my nephew who has yet to discover the gentle, strong man my father is....
still living in disbelief i find myself hoping that this may all be a dream and somehow i miss interpreted everything that was said.... but i know it's true...

life is going to change in big giant steps for my family and i.... and all i can do is pray in hope that time gives us a little longer than what we know...
and with each day comes strength....

together we are tougher...

if i knew back then what i know now...
i would of joined the circus long ago....

can't wait for the sun...

is
hoping
this
is
just
a
dream...

i don't like the chances...

will it ever stop???

i don't think i can do it....

will love
change with
time???

my eyes feel quite heavy.............
but i just don't want to sleep....

love...

this year i have learnt how the
loss of real love can rip you apart

and how the birth of new love can
capture your heart in a world of pure ecstasy....

this is me....

i think i just feel in love......

don't have time now....

there is a baby coming....

all in preperation for you...

40 minutes.....

just a call....

all in preperation for you....

30 minutes.....

the rush

15 minutes...

a pounding heart....

20 minutes....

a tear....

5 minutes....

the embrace....

25 minutes...

the smile...

all in preperation for you....

time is changing....

i think it finally hit what all this fuss is.....
exactly what everyone has been talking bout for a while....
i thought i had prepared myself but somehow i was wrong...
a little time today got me thinking bout it...
with a tear and a smile i know that this is really it...
time is changing...

we're not gross...
we just don't know when to stop....

this is me....

touch me....

if i could only make you happy....

it wasn't the same without you today....

i
hope
you
think
the
same....

hi....


i like your shoes...

box....

so you're putting me in a box cause i don't like the things that you like...
that maybe i was trying to be rebellious just so i wasn't what they called the norm...
fighting against what society believes is right...

well you know what???

i wish i was just being rebellious...

club...

we're going to start a club... it's called 'la famiglia'
only the special kind are invited...

if your top gets caught on a tombstone... does it mean it's your turn next???

weird...

is it just me or does everything seem a little weird???

then sometimes people only care half as much...

miss...

i'm scared i'm going to miss that day... when time will change and my thoughts on love will differ... where lessons are learn't and family will grow...
i'm scared i'm going to miss that day, when i will get to hold you tight before others will see... where emotions will conquer and tears will pour...
i'm scared i'm going to miss that day....

wink....

did you just wink???

growing up...

the shittest thing about growing up is watching the folk you love most getting old...

i don't
think i
can do it
all over
again...

chamomile and lemon makes my tummy feel better....